A POEM BY FRANK O' HARA
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Perhaps it is to avoid some great sadness,
as in a Restoration tragedy the hero cries
"Sleep!
O for a long sound sleep and so forget
it!"
that one flies, soaring above the shoreless
city,
veering upward from the pavement as a pigeon
does when a car honks or a door slams, the
door
of dreams, life perpetuated in parti-colored
loves
and beautiful lies all in different
languages.
Fear drops away too, like the cement, and
you
are over the Atlantic. Where is Spain? where
is
who? The Civil War was fought to free the
slaves,
was it? A sudden down-draught reminds you of
gravity
and your position in respect to human love.
But
here is where the gods are, speculating,
bemused.
Once you are helpless, you are free, can you
believe
that? Never to waken to the sad struggle of
a face?
to travel always over some impersonal
vastness,
to be out of, forever, neither in nor for!
The eyes roll asleep as if turned by the
wind
and the lids flutter open slightly like a wing.
The world is an iceberg, so much is
invisible!
and was and is, and yet the form, it may be
sleeping
too. Those features etched in the ice of
someone
loved who died, you are a sculptor dreaming
of space
and speed, your hand alone could have done this.
Curiosity, the passionate hand of desire.
Dead,
or sleeping? Is there speed enough? And,
swooping,
you relinquish all that you have made your
own,
the kingdom of your self sailing, for you
must awake
and breathe your warmth in this beloved image
whether it's dead or merely disappearing,
as space is disappearing and your
singularity.
[1957]
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From
Meditations in an Emergency. Copyright © 1957 by Frank O'Hara.
Grove/Atlantic, Inc. Reprinted by permission. All rights reserved.
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